"When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny." - Paulo Coelho (The Devil and Miss Prym)
In the past weeks, I've been challenged to redefine my sense of self - not as who I've been - but by who I could be. I'm throwing off the bowlines of the past, as Mark Twain counsels:
"Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
This past week my sails have caught wind, and I am off to discover!
As you may have noticed, authors and books have been on my mind. To my great delight, I was offered the position at the local bookshop! I have loved books as long as I can remember. Some of my earliest memories involve reading books with Mom (well, Mom read them as I listened and amused myself with the pictures and pages). My favorite had to be The Monster at the End of This Book, where I would audaciously turn each page while Mom playfully pleaded against it and held the pages down. I believe that enjoying those early books largely influenced who I am today. My love of reading books, imagination, and learning has never waned (well, perhaps slightly in the midst of graduate school...). Books are comforting and powerful - they let us dream; they keep us grounded.
Sing Lee Alley Books is housed in a historic residence, built in the 1930's. It is a beautiful, big, white house that once served as a boardinghouse to fishermen and schoolteachers. It sits gently tucked off of Sing Lee Alley, the center of early Petersburg, just off the middle harbor.
When I submitted my application, I was told that working at the bookshop is like going back in time to the 1950's. I thought to myself "sounds like most any other place in town." The book inventory is kept on rolodex cards. The old cash register functions more like a calculator with a drawer than anything else, since it doesn't keep track of sales. For each book sold, I mark a tally on its rolodex card, and the money goes in the drawer. No burdensome sales reports or register balancing at the end of the day. Delightful! After only a 2-hour introductory training, I am slated to independently open and run the shop for a few days next week. I don't think I've ever before been so excited to start a new job.
And the wind at my sails has not stopped there.
I now hold the somewhat daunting privilege of being known as "Mrs. O'Leary, substitute teacher." I spent three days walking the halls of Petersburg High, filling in for the math teacher / volleyball coach who was at an away game in Sitka (and by away, I mean away). Here the sports teams must fly or ferry overseas to challenge other school teams. That's nothing new for this community of Norwegian heritage.
In what felt like a whirlwind tour of highschool mathematics, I taught 12 classes in 3 days. Calculus, PreCalculus, PreAlgebra, Geometry, Basic Geometry... I did so well that I surprised the students - the calculus students exclaimed to me, "we've never had a sub that could answer our questions before... have you taken a lot of math classes?" Oh, have I... though I never dreamed I would be teaching them, and teaching them well.
At the end of each day, I was more surprised of myself than anyone.
What a difference one week can make. My sails are set; I'm ready to explore and discover. Maybe I am a Viking after all. C'mon winds - bring it on!
And the wind at my sails has not stopped there.
I now hold the somewhat daunting privilege of being known as "Mrs. O'Leary, substitute teacher." I spent three days walking the halls of Petersburg High, filling in for the math teacher / volleyball coach who was at an away game in Sitka (and by away, I mean away). Here the sports teams must fly or ferry overseas to challenge other school teams. That's nothing new for this community of Norwegian heritage.
In what felt like a whirlwind tour of highschool mathematics, I taught 12 classes in 3 days. Calculus, PreCalculus, PreAlgebra, Geometry, Basic Geometry... I did so well that I surprised the students - the calculus students exclaimed to me, "we've never had a sub that could answer our questions before... have you taken a lot of math classes?" Oh, have I... though I never dreamed I would be teaching them, and teaching them well.
At the end of each day, I was more surprised of myself than anyone.
What a difference one week can make. My sails are set; I'm ready to explore and discover. Maybe I am a Viking after all. C'mon winds - bring it on!



So wonderful, Tana! God's timing is always perfect :o) Follow that wind in your sails, my dear friend!
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Yay Tana! So happy for you! Reading The Monster at the End of this Book with mom is one of my favorite book memories too!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!! It sounds like you will do great as a sub teacher/book store employee.
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